ME! [17 Jan 2005|07:16pm] [ mood | thinkin-not only bout midterms ] [ music | Greenday ] I've decided to write about me... b/c why the hell not?!hehehe anyways... i'm takin a break from studyin for midterms, as bart says "if i dont know it now i never will". I'm listening to don Mcclean's American Pie, an oldie but a goodie:) Today wasnt terribly exciting- i'm pretty much under house arrest w/ no liscense.. but only 13days left-yay! So, as i spent my time at home i talked w/ kimberly ann about wanakee- i feel much better now that we've talked. She says that the water-front director from last year, mandy, is most likely not comin back. Thus, I might actually get that position w/ Ken's assistance. I'm wicked excited about the summer, i just want it to be here right now. If i dont work at Wanakee i'll still be up there anyways so its all good:) Plus, colie and I plan to surf everyday so that will be fun. dock nights, and camping in my yard will be the highlights of my weeks again:-) But it's also kinda sad, I guess it just hit me that i will be leaving after this year. I wont be able to come home and see all my pals all the time. When i sent out the last of my application stuff it really hit home taht it will never be the same. As "time of your life" comes on my media player I can't help but think of the irony: how i just couldn't wait to get out.. but now i'm not so sure i want to leave. Oh well, I heard a quote somewhere that said ppl don't like change b/c they view it as bad.. so ill try and keep my head up for the rest of the year and cherrish all the good times. I just cant imagine marching into my grad seat w/ court- it seems so foreign. It will all work out tho, no worries:) So, I guess its back to math and some dumb music to keep me awake.. till next time (prob like 5 min from now). LOL. B*Mae :* post comment

life [23 Dec 2004|04:46pm] [ mood | distant ] [ music | three doors down ] Today has just been one of those awkward days... one of those days where you feel so distanced from everyone. Last night Courtney came over to tie-dye some christmas gifts.. which was going well until my mom came home. She came home bearing good news and criticism. I couldn't stand being humiliated infront of my friend so i just let loose and 'let her have it'. I gave her a piece of my mind. The disagreement escalated into a full blown fight... we were both incredibly rude and hurtful. As a result Courtney and I were late to Bible study, and I went to the beach instead of choir practice. I dont know what it is about the beach that makes me feel so much better... but it always seems to calm me down. I think i like the beach so much b/c where ever one goes in the world, the ocean is always the heart of the ocean is always the same. I know that sounds korny, but its true if you think about it. I think that is the reason i like pets so much, they are always loyal and constantly loving. After i almost crashed on my way home (b/c i was to tired; crying takes a lot out of ya!), i went to bed and got like 8 hours of sleep.. then my mom came in and started yelling at me again. So, i started reading wuthering heights to calm me down. Before i knew it i was asleep again. I slept till like 10, then i got up and showered. i called my mom and sort of made-up, eventhough she was still angry. We went to lunch w/ my aunt and my cuz and things seemed to be all good again... i dont know if this was a facade or her being honest. Either way i went home and Courtney came to gather the rest of her stuff, I appologized for last night and i think all is good in the world again. I have been reading and returning emails since(pretty much lolling about until i go out later). One email I read was from my aunt Linda.. in it she said something really meaningful. She said, "do what you think is correct, and you can live with." This is so meaningful in light of all that has happened in the last twenty four hours.. thank god for my relatives. ok well i suppose that all makes sense for how i feel, but there is something more. All of my friends have gathered twice since they've been home and I havent been able to go. They have thought of me and called, but i have been unable to attend... i miss all of them. hopefully i will be able to see them all together soon. This distant feeling has led me to play the music i connect with my europe trip... three doors down- away from the sun. It is good music and i dont know why i connect it with Europe really, but i do. Anyways, my rents are home so i better get back to the Common app, adios all:) post comment

nappin like a cat [19 Dec 2004|04:36pm] [ mood | napper:) ] [ music | Breakfast at Tiffany's theme song ] Wow! I just took a super good nap... i just love napping- all comphy and warm in my bed with absolutely nothing to do. Okay well i do have something to do.. a gov't paper, hence why i got out of bed. I fell asleep watching Breakfast at Tiffanys- one of my all time favorites! I just love the theme song music, and i'm always in agony at whether Audrey and 'Fred baby' will get together... and that poor cat- nameless slob. I asked my mother for the hepburn movie trio at Best Buy for Christmas, so that i won't have to borrow the movie from the Fogg library:) I think my movies and books are like a month overdue there, which is gross. So anyways, i got up to write my paper so that i can go to youth group tonight, which i can not for the life of me remember if it is at 6 or 630: i think i will go at 615 to be safe. I really like youth group, thanks to Courtney. We play games most of the time then Nathan gives a small sermonish speech at the end. I think it will snow tonight as well (2-5 inches predicted), so that will make for a fun drive home. Everyone pray for snow so we can have a white christmas!!!:) post comment

Oh Ya, I have the FLU :) [13 Dec 2004|10:39am] [ mood | i'm awake! ] [ music | Temptations- My girl ] That's right ladies and gentleman i had the flu and am now recovering... and debating if i should go into school or not. I dont think i'm going to since i've been up for an hour now and not have i attempted to get in the shower or pack my backpack- oh well the sun is out so i think i'll just catch up on my reading at home. Aside from feeling a little fuzzy brained i'm actually feeling pretty good- must be all the tylonal (sp?). i think i'm kinda hungry too, so i'm gonna go get some breakfast. Yum, Yum!!! post comment

christmas in 14 days! [11 Dec 2004|01:16pm] [ mood | i'm listening to country! ] [ music | Tim McGraw- How bad do ya want it ] YA SO THIS IS MY FIRST JOURNAL ENTRY, AND ITS KINDA EXCITING... KINDA LIKE CHRISTMAS. MY MOM IS IN OUR LIVING ROOM PUTTING THE LIGHTS ON OUR TREE (WHICH IS FAKE:) I LOVE CHRISTMAS... EVERYONE IS SO JOLLY IT'S GREAT. MY DEAR FRIEND NICOLE RICHARDS JUST DROPPED ME A NOTE TO SAY "HI" AND THAT SHE HAS BEEN THINKIN OF ME LATELY-SO THAT DEFINTELY GAVE MY A CONFIDENCE BOOST SINCE IM FEELING A LITTLE "UNDER THE WEATHER," WHICH IS REALLY CRAPPY. I'M LOOKING OUT MY WINDOW IN MY COMP. ROOM AND I CAN HARDLY SEE ACROSS THE RIVER-ITS LIKE MY NANA'S PEA SOUP... WHICH ISNT THAT GREAT. MY NEIGHBOR IS TRYING TO PUT A MARINA ON HIS SECTION OF BEACH NEXT TO OURS. I DON'T WANT LANG TO PUT IT IN B/C THEN TONS OF PPL WILL BE DRIVING DOWN BY MY HOUSE, AND THERE DEF WONT BE MUCH BOATING SPACE LEFT IN THE BAY FOR MY OTHER NEIGHBORS AND I TO DO ANY SIMPLE BOATING-SRY ALEX...NO ROWING THIS SUMMER! SO THAT'S GROSS... BUT ON THE POSITIVE SIDE I GAVE STU A COMPLETELY AMAZING SECRET SNATA GIFT- FILLED WITH INSIDE JOKES AND A SHIRT HE TOTALLY LIKES. YAY FOR TIFF AND I FOR FINDING THE GIFT:) ALL OF MY FRIENDS FROM LAST YEAR WILL BE COMING HOME SOON TOO- I'M SO GLAD B/C I MISS THEM.. ESPECIALLY MY BF. I WILL ONLY BE ABLE TO SEE HER THOUGH FOR A FEW DAYS B/C SHE'S GOING TO HONG KONG, WHICH WILL BE COOL. hmmm>>>> WHAT ELSE IS NEW IN THE LIFE OF ME... WELL MY SISTER IS OUT OF THE HOSPITAL AND DOING BETTER THANKS TO EVERYONE FOR ALL THEIR PRAYERS. I JUST MOVED UP TO A PRE-POINT CLASS IN BALLET SO IM WICKED EXCITED B/C I THINK ILL BE IN LIKE THREE DANCES DURING OUR RECITAL THIS YEAR. I CAN ALMOST REST ON THE GROUND IN MY SPLITS-WHICH IS ALSO A PLUS. OOOOH- I WENT TO THE MANCHESTER BALLET W/ MY MOM'S FRIEND AND HER FAM AND CUTE* SON. THE BALLET WAS GOOD, BUT IT KINDA DIDNT COMPLETE THE NUTKRACKER PLAY: CLARA NEVER WOKE UP!!! ALSO, I DID SEND ONE OF MY APPLICATIONS OUT SO I SHOULD HEAR BACK FROM THEM IN LIKE A MO. I LEARNED LAST NIGHT THAT YALE HAS THE SAME SAT AVG AS TRINITY SO I MAY BE APPLYING THERE... NOT TOO SURE CUZ ITS IN A SKETCHY TOWN. I'M HOPIN TO GO SOUTH TO EITHER VIRIGINIA, TEXAS, OR ARIZONA FOR FEB W/ MY CUZ FOR FEB BREAK. IF WE GO I KNOW THAT WE WILL HAVE A BLAST. FOR ALL THOSE GOING ON THE SENIOR TRIP- WE ARE GOING TO HAVE SO MUCH FUN... BUT IM NOT SURE WHO IM GONNA ROOM WITH YET... I THINK ILL DECIDE NEXT WEDS AT THE MEETING. OTHER THAN THAT NOT TOO MUCH IS GOING ON HERE SO I GUESS ILL BE GOING NOW:)ADIOS ALL P.S. EVERYONE CROSS YOUR FINGERS I GET THE JOB AT SOTNEWALL CUZ MEL HASNT CALLED ME BACK YET... OR THAT I CAN GO BACK TO THE Y. P.P.S. HERE'S MY QUOTE OF THE DAY:"we're all like a deck of cards, some may be kings or queens and some may be 6's or 7's, but without all of us the deck isn't complete"-boy meets world 1 comment|post comment

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